Cant sleep

Well I'm trying to sleep because I want to wake up early and I can't -_- . I been trying for ten min but whatever. Today was a good day overall. I felt bad at work because of the fall the other day and all my muscles hurt so I left a bit earlier. Then I got my niece and picked up babe and I got the greatest nap that took away my blazing headache. From then on it was cool we ate pizza :( I know. I ended up doing my nails which made me feel better lol. I have to start focusing on me otherwise I'll be shit in the end. Tomorrow I want to try the veggie shakes and water for detox. Let's see.

I love my bf :) so any doubt I had before let's squash it. I always have to live in the moment though lol who knows what will happen in the future? I've learned no matter how much I plan shit it's never gona go through as one expects. I will how ever be prepared. 😊

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New year same shit

I feel like I was so motivated as the new ear approached and now that it's here I haven't done shit... Is it normal to be this laid back when I want to better myself in so many ways? I find excuses for everything and I feel like a loser. I see my best friend doing all year things to better myself and she's already awesome. What the fuck do I need to do to get off the couch? I know forsure I want to travel. In gona do a double tomorrow at work and try to get money. I want to be able to travel!!!!

Anyway another thing is I can't fucking sleep at night now even when I wake up early. Ok never mind I took a nap yday during the middle f the day and slept in today lol ugh I need to stop this sedentary shit.!!!

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Just to write shit

Honestly I been way too lazy to write but I HAVE to. Lol I can't sleep at night thinking about random shit. Anyway I haven't done any diet. I guess I don't want to e skinny that bad right? I mean obviously I'm happy with the way I am. And for now I'll leave it at that ? I am definitely getting healthier though. I'm buying veggies tomorrow and other good stuff tomorrow. I'm getting a blender too cuz I want to start making raw veggie shakes... Let's see how it tastes though 😜

My mom is back and I always feel like I don't pay enough attention to my family. I wonder if it's normal though? Especially me living this far away from her now. I can say I try as much as possible to spend enough time with them. I always feel guilty about not hanging with my niece as well but I also know I have a life I live. I have to achieve that balance between selfish and caring with my family--- but what if they're selfish ?

School started and I am both scared of the flood of responsibilities/possibly hard work I will be going through and excited . I'll be doing sobefest again this year and that's always an awesome experience.
I have a big problem though. I suck at socializing with people at school. I'm inconfident that I won't be able to move ahead because of it 😔

Well it's Friday night so I'm going to shower and head out

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Its a new year!!

Okay so its monday and idid absolutely nothing lol. But i felt happy that way? I still need to get another job to get more experience in what i actually want todo. Whatever atleast last year i got closer by working here.
I was thinking if my bf makes money on the future i could lease a snall kitchen space and do catering for individual families. But i would definitely need to learn how to cook lol. Maybe cooking school is in my near future?
By the way i decided traveling is definitely what i want to do RIGHT NOW.

Lets see.
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& happy new year!! 🎉